kakalungkot...kanina pa ko di mapakali sa kwarto...masakit ung gngwa mo, pero cge kaya ko pa naman magtiis e...at kakayanin ko magtiis kahit gano kasakit paminsan ung ginagawa mo...sana maka2log na ko...

once i had a set of great friends in college...we shared many moments together, the good and the bad...somehow we drifted apart, well i think i drifted away from them but i believed that they would still be intact...many months have passed and now i believe things have changed...drastically...

 hehe di nyo ba naalala ang ating napagdaanan na...ung mga panahon na nagtatrabaho tayo ng magkakasama...tuwing may publicity ay natitiis natin ang sobrang init ng araw kasi magkakasama tayo at nagtatrabaho ng masaya...at tuwing matatapos ang trabaho ay pag-uusapan natin ang mga nangyayari sa club at kahit na alam natin na tayo lang ang nagtatrabaho nun ay di pa din tayo nawawalan ng loob kasi alam natin na nasa likod natin ang isa't-isa upang saluhin tayo kapag tayo ay napapagod na...

e ung mga panahong ang hilig nating tumambay...sobrang dami kong tambay hours nung applikante pa lang ako...at dahil un sa inyo...sobrang saya nyo kaya kasama, magcacards tayo, magkukwentuhan, magcacards ulet, magkukuwentuhan pa ulet...at habang ginagawa natin un ay mayroong napakalaking mga ngiti sa ating mga mukha...pagtapos natin tumambay ay dederetso tayo sa SM upang magliwaliw at magsaya...di nyo ba namimis ang paglalaro natin sa arcade, paghulog ng mga piso, pagdance mania, pagbabasketbol, panonood ng sine na sunod sunod...at hindi nyo ba namimis ang pagkaen natin sa tokyo tokyo...ung sobrang dami natin kumain ng rice...hehe dahil dun lumaki ung tiyan ko...

hehe kaya lang napalayo ako sa inyo...un cgro ung fault ko, lumayo ako at ngayon sobrang nanghihinayang ako...kung maibabalik ko lang sana ang pagkakaibigan natin...alam ko naman na di na natin maibabalik ung dati, pero sana kahit papaano e maging maayos tayo...

now i envy you, you who have a strong bond of friendship...you who have worked together and cried together...you who have shared laughter and tears...now i see that your friendship is at risk...i hope you could realize how lucky you are to have great friends, friends that would be there for you, friends that would care for you...friends that would understand you...

ang saya kaya ninyo, kumakaen kayo sa labas kung saan saan, nagoovernyt kayo sa boarding haws/condo/etc.. ng isa't-isa...nagbobonding kayo palagi, at naguusap kayo ng madalas...kapag may problema kayo may kadamay kayo at alam nyong may malalapitan kayo...

at ngayon porke may tampuhan kayo ngayon e ayaw nyo na mag-usap...kamusta naman???? di nyo ba naiisip na sayang ang pinagsamahan nyo...buti nga kayo may ganayang pagsasamahan e...ako wala...sobrang mahirap ang walang ganyan...so un sana wag nyo baliwalain...MAGUSAP NA KASI KAYO!!!! UTANG NA LOOB!!!! tandaan nyo na ang pagkakaibigan ay di lamang sa masayang bagay kundi lalong lalo na sa malungkot...alam ko malaki ang inyon hinanakit sa isa't-isa pero maaayos nyo lang yan kung mag-uusap kayo...pleasepleaseplease mag usap na kayo...bago pa mahuli ang lahat...sayang talaga...ung circle of friends ko dati ndi na magagawaan ng paraan upang maibalik sa dati...pero ung sa inyo pwede pa, so please lang tlga ayusin nyo na yan...magusap lang kayo, un ang simula...alam kong mahirap ang magkaintindihan lalo na kung lahat kayo ay matigas ang ulo, pero un sana simulan nyo, at susunod din ang lahat :)

yehey kami na...wala lng...medyo maraming dapat makasanayan pero kakayanin ko...hehe...mahal na mahal kita...

wow i haven't written in here for about a month or so. well i guess i have lost the will to write. but why did i write in the first place? well this was a requirement for my CW10 class. and then i met this really great person and started to write what i was feeling about her. i even wrote two stories about her. then after that i couldn't write anymore. probably because i dont want other people to know how im feeling. or probably im just scared to write bcoz the things that i would write would only bring more misery to me. i am not even making sense right now. hehe. well why the heck am i writing this? because there are so many things i'm thinking right now and i fell that i'll explode any minute. hehe. and maybe in the near future i would write again. there are so many things i want to write about and probably i'll start writing soon. :P

sept 30 was my bday. i was really sick that day. i had an exam that day. i thought it was my worst bday. but it wasn't.
after that day i received the best present ever, and my friends all greeted me. and for my exam that day, i got a 97% grade. well i still felt sick that day and i was kinda blue yet it was my bday, i cant say that im not happy, yet im not that happy :P